I Went Anyway: My Sound Bath Experience

On Monday, my anxiety reached one of the biggest peaks its hit in a very long time. It was intense and scary in that was only anxiety can be… the kind that makes you feel completely out of control, like your thoughts and body are spiralling without you. When it passed, it didn’t leave quietly… it left behind a mess of horrible thoughts and heavy feelings that lingered long after.

Because of that episode, the sound bath I had booked suddenly felt impossible. I found myself debating whether to cancel, telling myself it would be easy to just stay back, safer to avoid it, but I knew what that urge really was.. it wasnt intuition… it was anxiety trying to keep me small, trying to tighten its hold.

One thing ive learned after years of working on my anxiety is that avoidance only makes it worse. Every time I let my anxiety stop me from doing something, it gets stronger… so instead of cancelling, I made the decision.. not a confident one.. but a deliberate one, I told myself NO. I refuse to let anxiety take away something I had been looking forward to for so long.

Around the same time, both me and my good friend Hope have been feeling not so great! nothing dramatic just that heavy feeling like shit that sits under the surface, the kind where your functioning and showing up but everything feels harder than it should, were both just tired, disconnected and need something even if we cant quite name what that something was, so I invited her along! It wasn’t a deep emotional invite, it was just a “do you wanna come with me” moment but looking back, I think that choice mattered more than we realised. Trying something new when you already feel so low can feel impossible, your brain tells you to cancel and just isolate, choosing to show up together felt quietly powerful!

When Tuesday came, I woke up feeling on edge, that low level hum of anxiety was there, sitting on my chest… however I didn’t let that stop me, I got ready anyways and I’m so glad I did.

The sound bath ended up being one of the most mesmerising, surreal and calming Tuesday evenings I have ever had. Going with Hope made me it feel safer, lighter and more human, like were giving each other permission to rest without having to explain ourselves.

The venue itself was SOOOO cool, a cozy lil cafe filled with fairy lights, space to relax before session started and then…. as if the universe really wanted to win us over A TINY LIL DAWG… IMPOSSIBLY SMALL SUPER CUTE IMMEDIATE JOY, IMMEDIATE COMFORT. I will add a collection of photos at the end!

My Experience

The moment we walked into the room, I was genuinely stunned. It was one of those too stunned to speak moments. The space felt calm, grounding and intentional, the hosts were incredibly kind, relaxed, reassuring and gentle in the way they guided us, I felt safe almost instantly which isnt something my nervous system does easily!

We started by dancing, just moving our bodies freely to shake off negative energy and lingering tension. Then we screamed and I know that sounds intense bit it felt sooo good, like releasing something old and heavy thats been stuck for too long.

When the sound bath itself began, something shifted. My mind, usually loud, busy and over analytical went quiet… not numb, not dissociated just still I felt more alive more present and deeply in tune with my body. For the first time in a looong time it felt like my entire system had a factory reset, like id had a full internal update I didnt know I needed.

During the session, my hands and toes started tingling, a sign of energy releasing. Instead of panicking, I found it comforting like my body was finally allowed to let go.

Knowing Hope was beside me, having her own experience in the same space, made it even more grounding, we weren’t there to fix each other, we didn’t need to talk or perform to be okay, we were just simply existing somewhere soft together and that felt rare and important.

By the end of the session, I felt lighter all the fear, tension, anxiety and heaviness id been carrying just drifted away. I felt present, grounded and genuinely alive again. That sharp edge id been living with had softened!

Im honestly P word of myself (I hate saying “proud”), but for this, I really am. I showed up while already feeling like I couldn’t, I tried something new, and I didn’t just survive… I LOOVED it.

The universe works in strange ways, maybe the reason my first session was cancelled was because I was meant to experience this with Hope (and I’m so glad I did), maybe we both needed it at the same time. Either way, I’m grateful.

Sometimes healing doesn’t come from fixing yourself. Sometimes it comes from choosing to go away, and letting yourself be held, even if its just by sound, softness and someone walking beside you!